...dOwN tO hOuRs

it is currently 4:00am right now, dark outside, house full of people & me, i am WIDE awake! it must be wedding eve code that you are not allowed to sleep prior to your wedding...even though i am exhausted & so ready for a good sleep. so why cant i sleep?!?!

tonight is the last night i sleep in my house as a single lady...or actually can call it MY house, i guess i dont live here anymore. instead i live with my sweet husband that i marry in just a few hours. i hope he is sleeping right now! i have my wedding dress hanging near my bed & cant wait to put it on. i am all packed for our honeymoon...hopefully i brought everything. honestly, i have packed then un-packed & re-packed within the last 20min. i figured i didnt need to bring every bathing suit i own & i ended up realizing i may need clothes!

as i was laying in bed ((trying to rest at least)) i read a sweet letter from one of my best friends morgan! sadly she could not be at the wedding because of complications with her pregnancy right now & it being so soon to D day. what a sweet letter it was to get from her! thank you morgie...sure going to miss you today!

then i cant stop thinking about how AMAZING my mom did with the wedding reception. seriously! i can hardly believe how beautiful it is...i am very lucky to be having all my dreams come true in just a few hours. i am so glad my mom will be by my side this day, just like she has been my whole life....teaching me how to be a wonderful wife, & mother someday. (((i cant get too sappy right now because the tears will start & swollen eyes are a no, no right now)))

i especially want to thank everyone that has come from SOOOOO far to be here on jake & i's special day! it truly means so much to us & we love you so much for being apart of this new chapter in our lives. going through the temple this week put one thing in perspective for me & that is, this is ALL i will ever need...this is ALL i will ever want. to have the gospel in my life that brings me so much peace that i could ever imagine. to have my husband for not just time but for all eternity. to have a loving family that i want to spend forever with, & get to! to have a savior, jesus christ, that loves me & died for my sins so that i can return to live with heavenly father again. it is all worth it my friends & family...every part of it!

in just a few hours i will be sealed for time & all eternity to jake...the most amazing, caring, loving, giving, etc...man. i am lucky to call him mine.

i love you so much my sweet man! i have dreamed of this day for so, so, so long & now that it is here i am so happy to see that heavenly father blessed me with YOU! i say to every one of my friends that asks "how did you know?!"....if i had known it was going to be THIS GOOD...i knew long ago that i would marry you! with you it all finally made sense. i never had a worry about what was going to happen or about my feelings for you. never a question. heavenly father lead us to each other long ago & i am grateful that after all these years, it is right! i will always give you my 110% in making this a loving marriage that continues to grow each & every day! i will cherish the simple things & endure with faith all the trials we encounter along lifes journey together. i cant wait to have babies with you ((well i can wait, but i am excited for that day)) to teach our children! i cant wait to watch them grow & get to moments in their life like we are...getting married, in the right place, at the right time, to the right one! i cant wait to serve a church mission with you when we are old & grey ((i hope you still find me beautiful then- seriously!)) i pray that we always have a eternal perspective... you have already taught me so much & i am excited to continue to learn from you, to grow in the gospel with you, to grow a better relationship with our savior, jesus christ & heavenly father. i love you babe! see you in the temple in a few hours!